Be OK With Not Knowing
It is common to want to intellectualise everything and to want to know the reason for that in your life you regret or are not “happy”with eg:
Why did I chose this parent?
Why did I chose that partner?
Why did I chose that career?
Why was I betrayed?
Why did I allow that to happen?
Why did I chose this body?
And whilst we can dig and dig, and look at soul contracts and patterns, trauma and the “root” cause… the truth is, some things we are not meant to know.
Some things we will not comprehend until our life review. So instead of trying to understand and make sense of everything, drop into feeling, drop into acceptance, find what gives you joy, focus on your breath and the privilege of life and trust that you will “know” in the right time.
Don’t waste your life “intellectualising” it. Move on and live it instead.