When I Became A Spirit Worker I Was So Naive

When I became a spirit worker I was so naïve, I thought everyone in the spiritual industry was “love and light”.  Looking back, it’s actually a bit embarrassing to share how wide eyed I was.

I blindly trusted, supported and shared everything I had with others, thinking we were all one big community working toward the same thing. 

Then I saw it, the dark side of spirituality, the backstabbing, the betrayals, the power games, the evil eye, the theft, the curses, the psychic attack between practitioners and between practitioners and clients.  More than once I went home from a session actually paying for the “healer” to dump their toxic energy on me without awareness …

I had come from corporate, where things get competitive and brutal, but nothing prepared me for "lightworkers" with unintegrated shadows.

A psychic once did a reading on me and said: "What do you do? You have endless sharks circling you." I had no real answer…not yet.  

Because it was all pointing to the same place. My unintegrated shadows. The hidden shadows in my lineage. The shadows in my Soul path. Every betrayal, every attack, every "why does this keep happening to me?", was an invitation I kept refusing.

So I stopped blaming and I chose to look within. I found a myriad of Soul, lineage and personal shadows that had been waiting, patiently, to finally be witnessed.

The relief was like putting something down I didn't realise I was carrying. It transformed my life and my work. Because when you know your own darkness, you recognise darkness in others immediately. I am no longer naïve. I am prepared. And I want the same for you.

"The more one knows about one's own wickedness, the more one is able to protect oneself against that of other people. The evil within oneself recognises evil within the other. If I am naive about my own evil intentions, then I shall fall victim to those of others.",

- Marie-Louise von Franz

Here is the full quote:

"In general, looking at one's own shadow is purely disagreeable, it is no fun, and the results also are not very amusing, but it has one great advantage: the more one knows about one's own wickedness, the more one is able to protect oneself against that of other people. The evil within oneself recognises evil within the other. If I am naive about my own evil intentions, then I shall fall victim to those of others. Everybody can lie to me, and I shall believe them. Or they can play tricks on me, and I shall fall for it every time, becoming the poor baby in the wood, the fool who had such good intentions but whom the evil world has treated badly [poor-me, victim/martyr consciousness]. That does happen, especially to young people, and generally to naive people-they are really harmed by evil people. But indirectly, they themselves are guilty, for they haven't sufficiently realised the evil within themselves. If they knew more about that, they would acquire a kind of extrasensory perception for the evil of others. The idealistic fool who gets cheated by everybody and always has bad tricks played on him cannot be helped by pity, but only by being led to his own shadow." - Marie-Louise von Franz

Thank you Zachary Ellis for sharing this quote.